Friday, April 21, 2006
today was such a bitch. it was a day of major cussing. and when i said i haven't felt the pressure, well i sure felt it today. it started in math when she just kept giving us more and more questions and it was impossible to finish and i was stuck at each question for too long a time and i got so stressed but wtfwah. and then it was just continued in this very much vicious cycle. and it ended with having to wrap our tables and clearing that mountain of a stack of books under our tables. and xing1 qi3 wu3 zhou1 bao4 decided to give us this horrendously big and out of proportion file. it was so hectic i was snapping at everyone. so yeah sorry (: and then i had to collect my ic which i look like junk in though everyone's conclusion is that everyone looks junky in cards used for identification like ez links and ic's. cabbed home and it just seemed too f cking much and even my mother didn't seem to help. and then i just broke down. was very much tempted to slam my fists into the wall again but i don't like having to put ice on my knuckles the next day. and the last time that happened niu scared me with some story of her friend :/

slept everything off and just woke up an hour ago to supposedly discuss tomorrow's fellowship. but i came online to be INFORMED. so yeah at least it got me up. and now i have to go start doing my work before i have a relapse of stress and end up doing something stupid. FIGHT PROCRASTINATION. hur

midyears are here and i have done NOTHING. i was supposed to get my amath textbook today but no i was sleeping. shucks

goodbye :/